A Novel Trauma


Trauma;
the stuck-together pages,
in chapters of profound, pensive,
autobiographies.

Excruciating. Excommunicated.
Altogether, too painful, to read aloud.

Stuck-together, with a mixture of torment,
and, anguish, to make; a binding gum.

A binding gum; of separation.

And, pages made from;
carbon-steel.
Steel-ed, with sharp, serrated,
glinting memories, for edges.

Prone to giving inquisitive, attempting readers; papercuts.

Often, the footnotes,
of conversations,
make uninteresting,
yet, curious folks,
search for answers,
within, forced, half-heart-to-
hearted, bibliographies.

The shackled paragraphs,
are, never-knowingly, sacrificed,
(despite ritualistic efforts)
and, always out of bounds,
much like the worship,
of, Crom Cruach.

Volumes take further cover,
within covers, subjected,
to the similar critique,
and judgement,
as the harem’s lovers,
by the eunuch.

Only the authors know…

The words written within,
their respective, gluey-shroud.

Choosing to keep,
manuscripts closed,
’til kingdom come.

A polite memorandum is widely spread…

That section of the book is, “unfortunately”; no longer printed.

However, you can find, most of, what you’re looking for, at the end of the aisle, marked; ‘Razor Cut’.



Dissociated


A thousand-yard stare
leaves ice shelf
ravines
grandiose canyons
constant chasms
Calcuttan
black holes


Cumberland gaps
and devils
betwixt
here
and
there

Kentucky doesn’t exist
and there is no otherside

Purgatorial
is the in-between space
of neither


here
nor
there

Heavenly hellishness
Wings of burning nothingness

No future or past
nevermind
the presence
drifting in the space
amidst


sane and insane
on an asteroid without
any future collision
purposeless
and simply without a
here
or
there


A memorandum written
on paper lost in a foreign galaxy
by a chaotic spaceship crash







Dissociated.


A Dervish, named; ‘Constantine’.


I, Myself. Constantine.
A trailblazer. Making my mark,
until tremors, quaking, and, a long lived aftershock. Got trapped, got sick, now,
making my way home; to Torment.
Manifested;
off-track, lost, unfound, raging, bitter, twisted.
And, sick. Obviously.


Disorientated, tranquil tornadoes,
of, marauding memories,
revolve statically;
sarcastically whirling,
with the sincerest, of all, ironies;
like a Dervish, riding a languid carousel,
a Dervish, named;
‘Constantine’.
The inert twisters,
carry, and, cast –
concealed emotions,
that are; born to seek death,
that are; created to destroy.


The camouflaged
saliences, are;

re -visited,
re -worn,
re -vealed;

‘In the stitching –
a khirqa of shame, whispers, “guilt survives, long after, the dead, have been mourned.” As sorrow seeps, from, a blood-soaked; hood, cuffs, and, sleeves – where cloying, bloodthirsty tarmac, bore it’s teeth, causing shudders. Devouring all escapes, to salvation.
And, after grasping, deep-down,
in those, endless, cloak pockets, Mercy, was found slain. Smothered, by iniquity, concrete, rocks and rubble, as compassion is, demolished by dark, anguished,
traumatic silences.’


Uncontrollable
obedience – stagnantly spins,
and, turns, soothing provocations,
into, a, swooner’s consciousness.
Hushed screeches vomit, teasing and tormenting; to mutilate…
To massacre;
a begging, bruised, exhausted, inner-sanctum.


A colourless draining.
The colour is fading,
from psyche’s cheeks,
a liquidating; of shady pulp,
of soft, once radiant,
rainbow spattered, but, now, only;
grey matters.


I, Myself. Constantine.
A soggy, battered, quivering, hasbeen. An already; blazed trail.
Long forgotten.
Lying beneath,
a superego’s ocean-jungle undergrowth, where there, once was, a long, plumed, dove-white robe.
Overgrown, crestfallen, and, un-phren-dly;
lying beneath,
the forsaken waves, of; lost seas, past shocks and, cruel, convulsive, inclemencies.



Burning Gratuities


Catastrophe

strikes – once, twice?

Thrice and out of here.

A bomb masquerading as a bowling ball;

this heavy burden of

duplicity.


In a race to get hot

the pot is calling the kettle…

“Boiling?”

“No, just lit.”

“And, half-full?”

“No, half-empty.”

Sigh.

“Okay. Thanks a lot.”


Now, stand back and watch the fireworks.

Tick, tick… broom.

Embarrassed;

fallen Ash is swept aside;

a remnant of explosive outbursts.


Burning gratuities of rage

make the face

of a clock

that time

could not change

nor cataclysm

erase.


Counting down to

dinner-time.

But, no just desserts

just yet.


Repeatedly,

primordial soup

is forcefully ingested

and teary-eyed child is

degraded.


Erupting memories;

simmer

indelible scars;

resurface.

Unfaded.