I have become an unflipt calendar,
with halting pages, slow.
That, only, turn over, to;
stop, freeze, lay, low.
A quickening mind of dates & times,
that remains unmet.
Whilst caught, fraught— lost,
under a snow-driven age.
And, as life-long, cold barren winters, called, ‘Chronostasis’, hold to chilled ransom my nightly blights. They thrust toward me, unjust, piercing my exposed thoughts,
with sharp ice-picks that cut right through the absence of my joy in evening’s light.
They bleed from my seasons,
any chance of,
a sun-soaked homecoming.
Instead, giving out to each,
lone, shivering memory,
yearning for familial embraces —
taut
a blizzarding blow that buffets away, any sense from me,
of those cosy, halcyon days:
my youth, spent a-bask,
in tobasco summer’s warmth.
Each night, that passes me by,
unmoved.
I am, further from,
my point of equatorial origin.
I walked & trudged long,
on the spot, for miles.
Following, still, Hibernal hooves.
Hearing, Despair’s shrill, brumal song.
In search of my vanished, joyous youth.
Amongst, the brutal, everlasting, whiles.
Where is my equatorial origin?
Uncentred and strewn ‘cross,
soon bleak, silver plains.
Like the swathes of arboreal foragers,
that the Younger Dryas impact’s frost, lost—
under a snow-driven age.
No, those joyous, youthful, halcyon days of mine,
won’t shine — lost,
under this snow-driven age.
I’ll never shine — lost,
under a snow-driven age.
© poormansdreams












