Life, will have, plentiful, ups and downs, and, cause, your vessel, lasting, scar-shaped, ugly, frowns, made, for, your masking, like, an inside-out clown, appearing, without asking, use, every, magic trick, around, to, make, a scared present, a past thing.
A, declining, health, where, inclining tumors, grew, saw steep lengths, depths and breadths, from, which, to jump, into, a sedentary pool, at, the basis, a few words, sit, upon, a stool, saying, “There’s a duty in drawing breath, but, there, is beauty, renewed, beginning, in, death.”
I used to give, so, truly, to, many, undeserving hands. But, their fingers, bit, unruly, a deathly, gripping bite. So fierce, that, I could, never, understand. The nail, poked, so cruelly, in, open wounds, unmanned. Fangs, tore flesh, ripped, unduly, with ferocious, ripping might, making, morsels, of, a spirit, big, and, grand.
So, now, I guard, my giving, from, a watchtower, in, the skies. Protected, with prayers, to, the benevolent unliving. They’ve, no need, for, sleep, and, shine, essenced lights, on, the unforgiving lies. Their end, is, my beginning. Their misfortune, is, my prize. As, they remain, forever, willing, for, souls, and, se- crets, to, keep. Keeping, my keepsakes, close, to, their chests, every, night.
Thoughts and memories, line lofty, laddered shelves, in the library of my mind. Nostalgia bound reveries, flamboyantly hide themselves, in the hopes I try to find.
When turning pages, of dusty, thickened books, I sometimes quickly shut, it has taken many ages, to steady hands that shook, from deep and nasty papercuts.
There is a restricted section, lurking, darkly in the corner, that I am too scared to go, in my mind’s eye’s reflection, the mirrored contents torture, I daren’t reveal what’s unshown.
So I stick with the unrestricted, by ever-glowing, lamp-ish lights, and try to list the lucky texts, I want the lurking dark; evicted, to move out hindsight, but I know that’s just a foolish jest.
I hope to read a winning mantra, that makes me brave enough to grow, to a fresh museum from library of old. To cut the nose off ‘great’ Alexander, climb Kilimanjaro’s peak of snow, and scathe the Berserkers foretold.
But until the day I speak candor, when darkly, lurking books do glow, I’ll keep my stories on shelves untold. When I’m a fire-resistant salamander, when my thoughts are aluminium tableaux, that’s when burning writ will be on the wall, and, my ashen past, in flames, will, call, simply, to unfold; a rekindled present, scrolled; a revived parchment, quenched; a resurrect, disenthralled escrow.
To be within the mind, of a Vikingr let loose, on seemly pleasant, green and sacred shores, smelling the allotted, pillars of salt, on fastly running, back-looking gusts, remembering a spouse’, face in your lowly brooch, ahead are vicious skies, that are painted war, you vanquish gut-lain, fears and assaults, you devour anxieties, like herring-ed crusts.
Those seemly pleasant, pastures are now, where your long boat, wrecked and sparked, yet you still walk within, weathered place names, that the modern folk, do often mispronounce, your -fords and -dales, are as common as the cow, and Thor’s thundered, drum is still hearkened, though your longboat, is no longer lit aflame, the ash can still be tasted, in scathing, soiled mounds.
A ransack of memories, like a club to legs, makes deadened, bereft and forgetful, staggering gaits, and awful anger afoot, for histories lost, drowned and capitulated, a new beginning takes, sagas of broken eggs, and lega-seas unfound, are always regretful, so when you swim, in the footsteps of King Cnut, beware of the billowed, tides, seiðr, fated.
The hirsute, emboldened, mist, descended. Like, a creeping, crawling, barber’s floor. With, surging, vapoured, hairs, extended. To cover, the clippered, unseen, unsaw.
Like, rusty, knees, knelt and bended, to sweep, the offcuts, a million score. Dustpans, were made, from, grey streets, wended, and, hand-held, streetlamps, for, the chore.
The blinding, fog, then, pounced, it’s chance, like, a lion’s mane, on, a Zebra’s, corpse. And, like, a lash in eye, it caught, a glance, of, why, misconception, agonises, sore.
The unforetold, ensconced, romance, became, a butchers block, of, knives, and forks, set, within, the murky mist, and, discontented, foggied, manse.
Finally, the silver, outcasted, plumage, received, a scourging…
A prevailing wind was, newly, emerging…
A haar-shaped, basket, carried by, a stork.
Landed, softly, gently, by, a lonely door.
An angelic cloud, kicked, and danced.
As, the prevalent wind, made a fist, pretended, and, knocked, three-times, then, took a walk.
The cloudy child, then, took mystied, breaths, into, human-form.
And, a long-trying, couple, found, at long, last…
…that, an open door, meant, their mist, and, fog, had, ended.
How far, do your, wing-ed tears, fall, before, they fly, into, comfort’s arms? Do you, wish them, to float, further, afield, or, is, this.. …horizon…..enough…..for…..you? The future, keeps, it’s eyes closed, and, I
can never, rouse them, open. So, I guess, I’ll fester, in, your firmament, until, you, find me, here.
waiting wishing waiting wishing wishing waiting wishing waiting waiting wishing waiting wishing waiting wishing waiting wishing wishing waiting for the down- fall of my de- tested enemy was…. well…. the best invest- ment of time spent I will ev- er know.
to put yourself in another’s shoes imagining their choice, their health even their views to move their way each stride and tread patterning the words they say or where they’ve fled to reach checkpoints in their footprints travelling within connected joints being shedded skins to chew with their teeth feel the broken bones shattering sense what lies beneath see through cover, blown to focus on their scars both visible and not inhabiting their sweaty palms a body, mind, uncalm to watch their sorry eyes reflect, a mirror smashed fragmenting to understand their lies and shards of broken pasts to sniff a chancing nose of losses, draws and wins gambling scent their highs and lows as fetid wheels spin to try to understand what has always been happening like a tailor’s hand immersed in their seam to kiss with their lips discern their taste of love fastening to be a doting fit like, fingers in a glove to stroke their coiled hair wrap around their spiel flattering to be their lung-filled air for you to really feel to sail riverly hearts navigate their brains staggering…
Those, three little words, from, a father, to son. Take flight, like, the birds, in, the broad, midday sun. Sprint, like, limbs, so absurd, after, starter pistol’s gun. Like, Achillean heels, undeterred, tragedy kills them, for fun.
Those, three little words, from, a father, to son. Crushed, by, hooves darkly furred, the words, cower when shun. Fade into obscurity, unheard, like, unjocular puns. Are lost, and, never return, like, miscarried orphans, or, runts.
Those, three little words, from, a father, to son. Become, unspoken, reserved, weighing down, like, a ton. The weight, weighs heavy, and, hurts, the shoulders, of, spiritual ones. Creates, heads, bent, and, curved, as horizoned eyes, look, over yon. For, blue sky, but, grey has emerged, now, the grey skies, are fading, to none.
An echoing remainder, leaves heart-shaped, “I love you”s, beset, in wrinkles, on a face.
And, those, three little words, are, like, the stubborn, fatherly stone, that’s unbled.
They whisper, “There’s, no peace, future, or, solace, in, loving words, to a son, left, unsaid.”